Changes

Change can be scary, even good change. Sometimes it's not obvious whether the changes you're facing are good or not-so-good and that's unsettling.

Since last Sunday when I came home from Blissdom, the winds of change have been blowing through my life. I have a feeling there will be some good for us from the changes but also some not good, and that has me really anxious. I'm not sharing most of it with Mick yet because I don't have all of the details yet and because I don't want him to worry about me while he has his own life changes to deal with. (We received notice the day I got back that his current position at work will end next January 31, so he's got to find something else by then.) Sitting with the anxiety is not easy for me but for now it's the right thing to do.

The truth is that nothing ever stays totally the same because we' constantly evolving and - hopefully - growing. We have a saying at work that if the organization structure hasn't changed in a year or more then we're probably overdue for a re-org, and I'm starting to think the same is true in our private lives, too. How we choose to spend our free time is a huge part of who we are, and it's important that we choose wisely so that we're putting the first things first, as Steven Covey would say.

All of these things are going through my head as I don't write my Blissdom recap post I keep meaning to write. Ultimately, though, that's OK, because the lessons I learned in those five days are with me as I work through the anxiety and possible pain of change. God knows what He's doing, folks, never doubt that.