Hello Darkness my old friend

The depression is back and better than ever. I've been on the generic Wellbutrin for a month now and it's gone completely off the rails since I was forced to switch (because the co-pay for the real thing would be - and I'm totally serious here - $160 per month) from the real thing. I have all of the unpleasant side effects - constant sweating, constantly having to fight off the need to sleep, constipation, and having trouble remembering commonplace words and names of friends - with no relief from the symptoms of depression that I'm supposedly taking it to help. Hopeless, desperate, and sad...that's how I feel. So I'm going off the drug completely, which means 10 days of weaning my body off of it and then, well, I don't know what I'll do once I'm done. I know I don't want to try another antidepressant: I know what works for me (name-brand Wellbutrin), I just can't afford it. Try to increase the frequency of my meetings with my therapist from once a month to something approaching once a week? Give St. John's Wort a try? I don't know.

I can barely keep my eyes open and yet I need to pick up one of the kids from my house then head to the Junior League house for my Fund Development Council meeting tonight before I take him back to his home. I can't wait for the generic Wellbutrin to clear my system so that I can just be depressed and not depressed AND exhausted!