Different day, some boring stuff
Wednesday night. Well, I decided to postpone the start of my next class. I'm just too stressed out with too much on my mind and my schedule right now to be able to properly focus on school. I've got the same class scheduled for June so it's all good and a weight off of my mind.
With that dealt with, there's still my upcoming first hearing with Alcott in front of the judge. My report went in on time (yay me!) and my supervisor let me know today that she thinks it looks great (double yay!), so that's reassuring. I went to a volunteer recognition luncheon yesterday and it couldn't have been timed any better for me. I talked to my CASA mentor, Ruth, as well as a five year veteran, Marj, and both told me that the way I'm feeling is totally normal and will pass. They both shared with me stories about their cases and the fact that they got through the tough times, and that really helps. Maybe it's because I don't have any kids of my own or maybe it's just my overdeveloped need to be perfect at everything I do, but I've just really been stressing out about not being "good enough" at my CASA-ing, and those ladies really helped me see that just being there, listening, and trying my best will be "good enough". I need to be more patient with myself and stop trying to get it all right the first time and figure everything out immediately upon starting a new project. I know that there are people who are just naturally good at everything, but I need to potter around for a bit and figure things out as I go, so that's what I'm going to (continue to) do. I'm sure if you asked Alcott he'd tell you that I'm not a bad CASA and that's not faint praise from a 13 year old.
I've got Junior League Provisional training on Saturday in addition to the Placement Fair next Tuesday, where I will (hopefully) get put on the political action committee. If I don't get the SPAC assignment, my next choice is Education and Training Council, which will be interesting and satisfying, too, so it's a total win-win. It will be nice to see the remaining girls from my small group within the provisional class. We're down to just seven of us from 12 when we started, and I haven't seen several of them since February, so we've not done a particularly good job of staying connected, which is the point of the small groups. On the other hand, there are four of us that have seen each other quite a bit (several times a month), and I consider all of them friends, so it's not a total wash. I don't think any of them are looking at the committee assignments that I am, but that's OK.
Aren't you glad you stopped by?
With that dealt with, there's still my upcoming first hearing with Alcott in front of the judge. My report went in on time (yay me!) and my supervisor let me know today that she thinks it looks great (double yay!), so that's reassuring. I went to a volunteer recognition luncheon yesterday and it couldn't have been timed any better for me. I talked to my CASA mentor, Ruth, as well as a five year veteran, Marj, and both told me that the way I'm feeling is totally normal and will pass. They both shared with me stories about their cases and the fact that they got through the tough times, and that really helps. Maybe it's because I don't have any kids of my own or maybe it's just my overdeveloped need to be perfect at everything I do, but I've just really been stressing out about not being "good enough" at my CASA-ing, and those ladies really helped me see that just being there, listening, and trying my best will be "good enough". I need to be more patient with myself and stop trying to get it all right the first time and figure everything out immediately upon starting a new project. I know that there are people who are just naturally good at everything, but I need to potter around for a bit and figure things out as I go, so that's what I'm going to (continue to) do. I'm sure if you asked Alcott he'd tell you that I'm not a bad CASA and that's not faint praise from a 13 year old.
I've got Junior League Provisional training on Saturday in addition to the Placement Fair next Tuesday, where I will (hopefully) get put on the political action committee. If I don't get the SPAC assignment, my next choice is Education and Training Council, which will be interesting and satisfying, too, so it's a total win-win. It will be nice to see the remaining girls from my small group within the provisional class. We're down to just seven of us from 12 when we started, and I haven't seen several of them since February, so we've not done a particularly good job of staying connected, which is the point of the small groups. On the other hand, there are four of us that have seen each other quite a bit (several times a month), and I consider all of them friends, so it's not a total wash. I don't think any of them are looking at the committee assignments that I am, but that's OK.
Aren't you glad you stopped by?
Comments
hugs!
Ang
You're such a great person with a kind heart. I went to the CASA website after reading your post yesterday and I think it's a wonderful organization (I'd never heard of it before). In fact, I am looking into volunteering myself as it seems like the kind of cause I'd really like to personally support.
Thank you!
Kris